should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements,
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

- Adele

you tell me

so i met my lecturer just noww. i just love her! she is an enthusiasm person. a bit funny, more in a jayus way sih HAHA. kinda person that is fun to be with and is a smart-asssss

it was a random bump but quite delightful. she's more like a friend rather than a lecturer. there she goes, "lorriane! dont be discouraged!"

...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA all i could do was laughing alllll the way. fyi, i was vunerable these days, and its kinda funny for i could hear encouragement from unexpected people. i asked her why she said so all of the sudden, and nothing really serious in reply. she was just saying cos she had a feeling. kaya dukun aje dahh haha but it boosted my mood! hiuk hiuk hiuk

now, i want to forward what she did to me, to y o u ; DONT BE DISCOURAGED!
hidup itu keras, tapih Tuhan maha adil. life still goes on folks. be braveeeeeeeee! wokeh cuyy? salam pis lop en 94huLz

sydney 05 24 am

no, here comes that sun again. means another day without you
so hard to do, so easy to say, but sometimes. sometimes, you just have to walk away

with so many people to love in my life, why do i worry about one?
but you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun

-- ben harper

deleted the posts due to some friends.

lor lu cewe lor. lu punya pride men. iye makasih yeh semue. kaget gua menunjang protes. maap ga mikir panjang what ppl might be thinking of abis baca. emang sesedih itu yah d mata orang normal? i cant think properly atm. gue ga minta dikasihanin juga anyway. just poured down what i feel and think. asik lho ber diplomasi ria without any judgement depan mata haha

lo tuh jadi kliatan miserable tau ga lor. lah emang and im not denying. sorry yah semua pokoknye thankyou udah care. kamsia kamsia

tapi lucu aja sih everytime masalah gini kejadian S selalu pops out nge bbm out of nowhere within the same day. this is the forth time kali. coincidences ato accidentally on purpose? haa

almost 1 month dan masih dalam masalah yang sama (dasar cewe)

people really can let you down. people are not guaranteed to take care of your heart and not to break it though they do know its fragile

d sydney. jauh dari orangtua, people you can depend on, supportive friends. every single problem you facing, ga bakalan kerasa sama kalo lo di jakarta. ada yang mengayomi. ada alas di saat lo jatuh dan buat bangun lagi. kaya nya gue bakal lebih bisa awet muda pas d jkt deh. hahaa homesick men

setiap masalah yang lagi gue hadepin, kaya satu reflection. refleksi kalo gue kurang depend sama Dia. kalo gue dah jauh dari Dia. kaya gue lagi jalan di suatu jalan dan ketemu jurang dan gue baru sadar, the hand holding me before kemana? ngilang. the owner is at back behind and provided me a better way. the one who wont ever break your heart and you can trust to, cuman Dia yang provides semua buat diri lu

BEEN CRAVING!

1. holga 35mm

dek jutek amat dek

2. black devil
hardly to find. nyari ampe jenggotan ketemu juga (click here)





3. diana F+ Hong Meow




4. Diana F+ CMYK



5. fujifilm mini instax



gilaa pengen pengen pengenn! droolinggggggggggggg

ga berasa ya bentar lagi dah mau January lagi. teruss gua ulang tahun 11 January lho. EHEMM. buat yang ngerasa terbebani yak, sok atuh di tilik tilik camera nya jangan malu malu gitu HHAHA

i know it takes time but kindly watch this video until the very end

from Compassion Australia

i learn a lot from this video. seriously. a lot. watch it if you havent! :)

really touched with the little kid in the end.
all i can say is, thank God ; thankyou for a better chance. thankyou for a better condition. for a complete family. for nicest friends indeed. for people that really support me to be better. for everything God thankyouuuuu i am just.. seriously really thankful

sometimes we need to look at those who not as lucky as us. i quite often complaining. but now, im learning to not to. not an easy stuff though

we cant do everything, but i do believe we can do something. here's with Compassion, we can be the sponsorhip for our brothers and sisters around the world who lack of education, lack of affection and daily needs. i want to share the blessings God has given. because when you see what you can do to bring impact in somebody else's life, it is so exciting!

im goin to be orangtua asuh this sunday as soon as i join Compassion. ga sabar chuy. aseek. btw please do help me spread the words ya all !

thankyouu buat yang uda kasih gua Hottest Female Blogger Award
// appreciate that thanksss thanks a lot! though i never intended to be awarded so, but still, thankyou! :) hugss//



t a p i

apologies in advance. blog gua makin lama makin suram. reflection feelings gua yang makin ari makin buruk. even worse when im alone. bukannya sengaja bikin diri gue terlihat menyedihkan dan minta di kasihani. no. recently semua pada balik indo. sepi. sedih mulu gua perasaan. gatau ya napa. heran guah. orang yang bener bener gua sayang juga uda ga peduli lagi. bahkan uda benci kali. ga excited welcoming december taon ini. hhhh. semua sorrowness kaya numpuk semua di akir tahun. ga nafsu idup. i need getaway(s). indeed

looks like nothing is wrong outside. but every breath, hurts

i always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh. but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry

decided to delete the post. realized i am the one to be blamed. the one who started out, took the risks and should have responsible for what ive done.

i love being good influence for others, yet

people love kepo-ing, follow exactly the same what others do, checkin others' updates regularly, stalking too much. why. do i smell curiosity? or jealousy?

quoted from stephanie's blog,

when it's not your problem and doesn't concern you at all, you should just 'storm out' of one's life and fuck your own. you know what? cuz if you DO so, it shows that you are a real suckerrrr and have no life.

quite agree :)

yet id like to adjust, those peeps make your life even more interesting. but still, dont be too bother

got typical quotes from random today. successively. i was browsing and assumed those as coincidences yet funny! this, doesnt refer to any specific person or purpose. its just good to be shared and is nice if you learn something


"Letting go of someone might be hard, yet it is the best way to make the other stay. Keep in mind that no two things can occupy the same space ... at the same time."


so true. i even found myself laughing. cause i know something you dont. period.

coba coba katakan kepadaku bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan,
janganlah kau katakan bila kita memang tak ada tujuan, dari apa yang dijalankan,

aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan,
terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa,
aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti,
lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

coba coba katakan kepadaku sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana,
buktikan dan buat aku percaya bahwa kita bisa, mewujudkan bahagia,

-Maliq n d' Essentials

watchlist

learning

terlalu banyak ngalah takut nyakitin perasaan orang ini itu lah bikin lo jadi sakit sendiri. i hate this kinda situation. even you cant get yourself survived

gua kaya lagi berdiri di lumpur hidup. goyang salah. diem salah. in the end lu bakal tenggelem juga anyway. tinggal tunggu waktu. beda cerita nya if theres a person whose willing to help me escape from this slowly-but-sure-mud-life